Susan Thom

What If Life Is Just A Dream


Posted: Friday, July 18, 2008

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I believe in angels, and not just angels in human form, angels with wings. Huge, white, soft and magnificent wings. Sometimes, I've sworn to myself that I felt their wings around my body. A hug when one was needed. They come to give me energy when I'm depleted, and they listen when I'm worried about something. Somehow, they get it into my brain what to do. Is it true? Am I right? Or is it all make believe? Are we living life or are we dreaming it? Is it fantasy or reality? And how do we know? How would we know? We could just wake up and be somewhere else. We have Faith. Trust. How do we know it's real and not just Hope? Is Hope the main ingredient? Do we hope that what we've heard and read was the truth? Do we believe it is?

Where did Hope come from? Who first felt the pangs of wanting something so bad, but not knowing if they would get it? Hope was born, and so was Wanting. Disappointment made it's appearance if all Hope failed, and nothing happened. "Truths" were taught in schools and at home, but it was just people reciting words. I never quite new as a child if life was real or make believe. Were there fairies in the tops of the trees? Invisible angels watching our for my best interest? Saints who I should pray to? Neighbors I shouldn't go near? What was real? It was hard to decipher. Especially as a young teen. It didn't get much easier to understand as an adult.

Are there nightmares people live? Are their lives filled with trouble, heartache, abusive behavior, health and financial problems? Do they think they are living in the real world, or in a nightmare? Or is it all make believe? Will you once again wake up and be back in your bed at twelve years old, safe and sound? It may seem like you're living a nightmare, and feel like it, but guess what? Life. Reality. It's not make believe. Actions have to be taken. Plans need to be made. Work has to be found so bills can be paid. Life includes so many tasks. Is it all in preparation for a life ever after? Do you hope so? Do you believe in it? Do you know it to exist, or is it all make believe? If I wasn't filled to the brim with hope, I couldn't and wouldn't survive.

I hope the world becomes a better place, and I hope all the good things that have been done are just the beginning of stabilizing our country. I know it looks bleak now, but I have kids, and I have to have hope that this isn't make believe, and there is a reason to this life on Earth, and that is to enjoy life ever after with the Light, or Being, or Spirit, we call God. I hope all of our kids will be able to afford to live in a world where even their parents are having a hard time. I hope none of my kids ever gets seriously hurt. I hope I never get cancer.

I hope I can give to this world all it is asking of me. I hope I can make a positive difference in people's lives. I hope my Crohn's doesn't get worse. I hope I always have a relationship with my kids. I hope my relationship continues to flourish and strengthen. I hope the way I believe is correct, or I'm going to Hell! I hope people would stop hating each other. Now that, sounds like make believe. I wish people would stop killing each other over jackets, or money, or jewelry. I wish predators would stay away from our children. I wish the 90% of priests that are gay would admit it so my Italian Catholic family would have to finally believe it.

Yes, hope is the key. An expectancy, longing, or desire. I expect there is a God. I expect there are angels. I long for the moment I am with my Creator. I long for my divorce to be over. I desire happiness and normalcy and honesty and love. I expect the World to change for the better. I expect people to wake up and start being human beings, and not mortal enemies. I hope the gas prices go down! I desire to fulfill a dream since I was twelve, to write a book. I have hope that I will. Is all this real, or is it make believe? It doesn't really matter, since we're living in this time period, now, and doing what we each think is best. If we wake up, and find out it was all a dream, we'll deal. But I have Faith that it's all real, and we'll all improve our lives for the better until it really is our time to meet our Maker.



Susan Thom is the mother of three children, two sons, 20 and 23, and a daughter 25. Her older son is in the air force in Germany right now, and her daughter is in the army in Tacoma, Washington.

Writing calms her, and gives her a place to go by herself! Clears the head and gets it out. She lives in a rural area, with a lake and mountains, and her partner, and has loved writing since she was a child.

She has been on a journey of self discovery for twenty years, and has learned many things about the human mind, and how to maintain some semblance of calm and peace within.

If someone reads one of her stories, and relates to her feelings, and gets a suggestion on how she dealt with them in a positive way, that would be the ultimate gift of her writing.

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» left by Roschelle Nelson
 3 years 204 days ago.
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The sweetness of your spirit is displayed in your words. I "hope" life bestows upon you all the happiness, joy and peace you ever "hoped" for....and then just a little bit more for good measure,
 
Your Twin,
 
Roschelle
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» left by sue 3 years 203 days ago.
Roschelle,
you are like an angel who God has floated into my life.
may you forever stay.
thanks for reading and commenting.
i appreciate it and welcome your words,
my best regards,
sue
 
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