Lord, I Have Been Weary
Posted: Wednesday, November 19, 2008
by Susan Thom
You may be tired of hearing me call your name Lord, for I have been doing so all of my life. Whether in times of great sadness, depression, anger, or excitement and happiness, I have come to you to ask for help or to thank You for Your gracious charity. If I had a dollar for every time I have said, "Dear God, help me," I would be able to feed the world. (Thanks for answering me, by the way.) I have cried uncontrollably, and begged for You to hear my pleas, and stopped crying on a dime, so to speak. I could feel Your peace come up from my soul, and I knew You were working on my behalf. Thank You.
I was lost and rambling through life, just following my feet, wherever they needed to be, and You gave me back my desire to be happy and to be one of your representatives on Earth. Dear Lord, thank You. I was overwhelmed and fearful and lost in my own mind, and You retrieved my instincts and made me feel strong again, and I thank You. I have pushed myself to limits I didn't know I could, through Your watchful eye and quiet spirit, I came through on the other side. Thank you.
I have lost my parents, and felt as if I had no foundation any more, but You allowed me to grieve and find my way back. Each circumstance and situation only made me stronger, when I believed I was at my weakest point. I thank You. I have raised three beautiful children who remember in their adult state, all I instilled in them. They are honest and respectful, spiritual and intelligent, and for that, I thank You the most. You somehow got the right messages across to me, and I to them, and I am forever grateful.
I was addicted to alcohol for many years, and I couldn't comprehend a life without it. Through Your guidance, I was able to stop, and learn so much about human behavior in my journey. Not only did I stop my addiction, I changed many character defects I was holding onto out of an anger I wanted abolished. I went through a cleansing of my mind and soul that was long overdue. Thank You. I have family and friends that care about me, and I care about them, and for that, I am grateful. Thank You Lord.
I love to write, and now have a place to do that, and it has helped through this long and painful process of divorce and I certainly thank You for showing me where to go. I am weary from the stress, but I know you'll take care of that for me, too. You have always been there for me, and I have felt Your spirit in my soul. There is nothing like the peace in knowing in my heart that You do indeed, exist. I believe that anything I can't do, You will do for me. Life is so much more satisfying when you know Your Creator is watching out for you, and helping you get through this life.
It hasn't been easy for me over the years, but I have learned through my heartaches and my failures, and I feel more solid as a result. I am tired from the lessons I've had to learn through painful experiences, but I am also strong, and I will continue on, better than I ever have been. I know You see where my heart and soul is, and You will help me get through life's ups and downs. I pray you watch over my son in the Air Force, and please don't let anything happen to him. That is the one thing I don't think I could bare, with any of my kids. Although, I trust in Your mercy and love, and You would get me through anything.
So, even though I have been weary, I am ready to pop back up like Jack in the box, and carry on until You are ready to take me home. I hope I meet Your expectations for me, I am certainly trying. My Faith has always been the one constant in my life, and I won't alter that. Please let Mr. Obama get our boys and men and women out of Iraq. Whisper to Him as he sleeps and guide him to the way. One must exist, someone just has to figure it out. Please let it be him, and his advisors. Thank You, Lord for your love and compassion. Without it, I don't know where I'd be.
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Top-level comments on this article: (8 total)Yes, keep the faith Susan, the Lord is listening.Please log in to respond to this comment.hi david,thank you.i'm trying very hard.however, what we know and what we feel like are 2 different things.i try to keep that from happening,my very best to you,suePlease log in to respond to this comment.
This article shows that there has been healing in your life, and I would think that just writing the article itself gave a sort of healing. I love Psalm 107, I think you will too. I especially love the way it reads in the New Living Translation.Please log in to respond to this comment.hi david,thank you for stopping by.i never knew life would be so intense, shall we say? but, it has been, nonethesless, i have learned so much about life, and myself, and my faith through some pretty rough times, and i made it okay so far. i always thought we were here to learn, well, i've definitely been learning. until the next time,my best regards,suePlease log in to respond to this comment.
Loved your article, so transparent and straight from the heart.Rodney*(Psalm 103)*Please log in to respond to this comment.hi rodney,thanks for stopping by and reading and commenting.i am so proud of you-over 900 hits on your article.numbers shouldn't matter, but it sure makes us feel good, huh?keep up the good work,my best to you,coachPlease log in to respond to this comment.
Hi Susan,
I have witnessed through your writing the work the Lord has done in you. You are a true witness to the power He has to set us free . . . if we want Him, too. I applaud your weaknesses and strengths. You know where to turn, regardless. I'm so thankful you do.
Love,
Avis
(Psalm 139)Please log in to respond to this comment.hi avis,thank for for coming over.i have learned lessons all through my life, so i guess God figured, why not up the stakes, in the past 20 months, and let's see what she does. so far, so good.however, i am getting a little weary. this divorce ordeal has been my biggest test, and i anxiously await it's closure.i hope you are doing well,my best regards to you,suePlease log in to respond to this comment.
Hi, Sue, Blessings abundant to you! All of us need to be that open before the Lord and with thanks as you gave.I was especially struck by that in your prayer and also by what it told of your children and God's help to you to raise them well. They are in a line of generations. ~JanePlease log in to respond to this comment.hi jane,thanks for reading and commenting.in these times of heartache and grief for everyone, i think God is working overtime.thankfully, He is there for us.my best regards,suePlease log in to respond to this comment.
Hi Sue. You have given hope to many ohers by your willingness to share. God bless you. I am looking forward to more great writing from you.Please log in to respond to this comment.hi ken,thanks for stopping by and reading and commenting.it's been a long road, but with God in my heart, mind, and soul, i have been able to do things i never thought possible.i hope i continue to bring hope to others-it's the least i can do to give back.all my best to you,suePlease log in to respond to this comment.
Susan, your article was such a blessing. I, too, lost both my parents and I know the void of that.The Lord is my Anchor, my stronghold...it's nice to meet you, and to be reminded of his faithfulness.You have a gift for writing. Keep at it.Please log in to respond to this comment.hi H.....,thank you so much for reading and responding.i am glad you enjoyed my article,and i will always keep writing, thanks for the support.my best regards,suePlease log in to respond to this comment.
Hi Susan,I think that God is with you in every moment and is calling you to come even closer to him. I pray for you to be comforted by the Lord, and that his Truth will be revealed to you and you will rejoice! I feel that I am my own Testament to this Truth. I would have never imagined that I would come to the place that I am now, but I sincerely can say to you, that I am true to myself only now. The Bible is filled with so much beauty, that it is its own miracle. Proof of the Bible being the word of God or God inspired is in these mysteries:1. The fact that although the Bible was written over many years, and by many authors ( and some are entirely unknown ) yet, it had been compiled in one complete story, and with such a harmony of voices. No two authors differ in tone and style so dramatically to not fit, which is a miracle in itself. This is not the natural way that men tell stories. They can not mimic each other quite like that, and especially not across cultures or centuries.2. The prophecies. How could they have known these things had they not been divinely inspired?3. The fact that the disciples of the faith were willing to sacrifice their own lives to spread this word. Do you think that people would do this if they were not 100% certain?4. No book has ever received so much commentary, study, dispersion, controversy and preservance as the Bible. In this sense, there is no tossing it off as a book filled with inaccuracies. Theologians and scientists across the world study it and become academics.Peace,JenniferPlease log in to respond to this comment.hi jennifer,i appreciate you coming by, reading, and responding.i am happy that the Bible brings you peace, love, belief, and hope.we all need something to hold onto in this day and age, with so much confusion and animosity and even hatred.stay well, and be at peace,my best to you,suePlease log in to respond to this comment.
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