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"Sometimes God calms the storm...Sometimes He lets the Storm Rage And Calms The Child. " I have been on both sides of this scenario. I have been in positions of pain and anguish, and I had no clue how to make the unpleasant feelings stop. When my mom passed away 20 years ago, at 59 years of age, I became bankrupt of all feeling except that for my kids. I begged God to allow it to be easier to deal with, and to take some of the pain away. And guess what happened? He did. It wasn't quickly, but each day became a day that was easier than the last.

Within a period of time, I was able to think of her without crying, and say her name, but I have yet to say anything other than she "passed away." I've talked to her every day since I was left alone without my mother. I know she listens and knows what's happening, and even sends me signs, but I am open to the fact that I may find out when I pass, that I was totally wrong. However, while I'm living, I believe in spiritual connection and a hereafter, and I know my mother is in the better of the two.

Many times when my three kids were growing up, I'd ask God to just calm the storm. Just let the kids settle down. I would get really tired, and asking for some help from above always worked. The kids would decide to watch a movie or fall asleep on the family room floor, and I could take a short nap. Just enough to give me some more energy. When each one of those now grown three kids got into their several accidents, I went straight to the source to calm the storm I was trying so hard to avoid.

None of them were ever hurt, thank God, but I still didn't want to think about my kids in collisions, or sliding upside down with a thin piece of metal between the roof and the road. I was nervous, anxious, worried. I didn't want to feel like that as I waited for them to get home, always in a tow truck, and cars always totaled. So, I would sit on my porch swing and pray. I thanked God first and foremost that they were okay, and I hoped the experience wouldn't be too negative to their future thoughts. I needed for the storm building inside me to be calmed. The prayers worked again.

Many storms have been calmed in my life through simply talking to God and asking for His help. Sobs have ebbed into silence. I was aware it was happening. One minute, I was crying as hard as I could, blowing my nose constantly, cradling myself as if I was my own rocking chair, and after asking for the storm to be calmed, I was relieved, focused again, hopeful, and determined to do the right thing, because I knew I could. The calming of the storms bring strength, and a feeling that there's a reason for us to be here, and we really should be dedicating ourselves to figuring out what that reason is.

There are then times in our lives where the storm is raging so fast and so furiously, we find it hard to keep up. It my case, I developed Crohn's, and have been dealing with it for about 14 years. I also suffer from depression, and an under active thyroid. Some even say I'm bi polar. I simply don't physically feel good, ever! Some periods of stress are worse than others, but Crohn's drains you, not allowing your intestines to absorb any vitamins or minerals. One of the side affects is depression and lethargy-not laziness, lethargy! A side affect of an under active thyroid is also depression, and then of course, there's the depression.

I don't want any of these things. I have suffered behind closed doors for 14 years, and I landed in bed twice due to stress, and the Crohn's kicking in. The first symptom for Crohn's in most explanations, is that Crohn's is a serious intestinal illness, and usually the first symptom is "flu like" symptoms. I feel like this everyday. And they were right whomever they are.

For those of you who may know a person with Crohn's, or might think you have it yourself, I will put the next information up.

Crohn's disease is a form of inflammatory bowel disease (IBD), which involves ongoing (chronic) inflammation of the gastrointestinal tract. Crohn's-related inflammation affects the intestines

"Symptoms List Symptoms could include:

Abdominal Cramp, Abdominal Bloating, Pain, Lower Abdominal Pain, Gastrointestinal Bleeding, Constipation Gas, Abdominal Pain, Blood In Stool, Right Lower Quadrant Pain, Abdominal Distension, Gaseous

Change In Bowel Habit, Rectal Bleeding, Diarrhea, tired, Loss of Appetite, Fever, weakness, Crampy Rectal Pain, Pain With Bowel Movement, Fatigue, Chronic pain, Bowel Sounds Loud, Feels Hot to Touch

This is all just normal to someone with Crohn's, and what I live with everyday, and have for 14 years and yet i've taken care of the finances, three kids, a home, and whatever else came my way.

"What are the complications of Crohn's disease? Complications of Crohn's disease may be related or unrelated to the inflammation within the intestine (such as intestinal or extra-intestinal). Intestinal complications of Crohn's disease include obstruction and perforation of the small intestine, abscesses (collections of pus), fistulae, and intestinal bleeding. Massive distention or dilatation of the colon (megacolon), and rupture (perforation) of the intestine are potentially life-threatening complications. Both generally require surgery, Recent data suggest that there is an increased risk of cancer of the small intestine and colon in patients with long-standing Crohn's disease.

Extra-intestinal complications involve the skin, joints, spine, eyes, liver, and bile ducts. Skin involvement includes painful red raised spots on the legs ( erythema nodosum) and an ulcerating skin condition generally found around the ankles called pyoderma gangrenosum. Painful eye conditions ( uveitis, episcleritis) can cause visual difficulties. Arthritis can cause pain, swelling, and stiffness of the joints of the extremities. Inflammation of the low back and of the spine can cause pain and stiffness of the spine. Inflammation of the liver (hepatitis) or bile ducts (primary sclerosing cholangitis) also can occur.

 

Sclerosing cholangitis causes narrowing and obstruction of the ducts draining the liver and can lead to yellow skin (jaundice), recurrent bacterial infections, and liver cirrhosis with liver failure. Sclerosing cholangitis with liver failure is one of the reasons for performing liver transplantation. Sclerosing cholangitis frequently is complicated by the development of cancer of the bile ducts."

I have had several of the symptoms mentioned, several times, except surgery, and many I live with on a daily basis. I'm pretty dizzy, sweaty, weak, and tired most of the time, but I'm doing my best to deal with it. To me, this is a storm that was raised to calm me. I was letting outside people get me to the point of depression and giving up. Almost got it done.

 

But I'm stronger than that, and with God answering my prayers, I am much calmer. I can actually enjoy life now. I walk through our home and smile. It looks beautiful. The property also looks beautiful, and I am grateful God saw it fit to allow us to be here. I believe He knows we worked hard for it.

It's nice not to get mad anymore, and it has come to this through a lot of self help, and working on myself, something I think everyone should do, unless you have no flaws! I was going through a pretty traumatic storm for a while, but that's behind me, and now I can start to enjoy life at 53. The calmer I can be, the less things hurt.

 

Crohn's is no joke, as it was no joke to lose 6 teeth once the stress kicked in the Crohn's. And no one should speak about it if they haven't experienced it. It is chronic, it is painful, and it's in me. I'm not lazy, nor have I ever been lazy. I have diseases that all have the same symptoms, depression and lethargy, and then, the medications have the same side affects, on top of feeling like i have the flu, and joint pain.

 

I know how I feel, I know how I wish I didn't feel, and I don't need anyone commenting on my health, when I'm the only one who knows what's it's really like. I know there are many who wouldn't be able to spend a day like I do, even if they  drove around for 8 hours, such as a pharmacy delivery person and they are paid, for doing less than I do at home in a couple of hours, while feeling ill.

There are those who think you're lazy and afraid to leave the house, when you'd do anything not to feel the way you do, and now, I love getting out of the house. Fear has never been something I couldn't conquer, and it's not a big part of my character, as many know. The storm raged for a reason. Time to get myself stronger and make every minute count with those I love, and continue enjoying our home and property.

 

I appreciate what has been definitely bestowed on me by God, and I am eternally grateful, and will never make any excuses for my deep belief in a Higher Power. Those who judge that belief, will have to answer to Him, not me, and I have no doubt they will. I have worked very hard my entire life, since I was 14, and only stopped due to circumstances that were presented to me.

 

I had many jobs, 7 years at the post office being the best, and where I made the most money. I was always self sufficient, and never was there a time I didn't have plenty of money, or a car, or a place to live, or needed a hand out. I've had to borrow money in my life, but I paid it back, and it wasn't while I was working. I remember my orange volkswagon. I loved the older volkswagons. I had that for a few years. I bought it from a roommate of mine.

I'm happy, probably for the first time in my life. I'm not going to waste that on anything that's unnecessary for my family. Of course, there will always be those who think they know everything, yet know nothing, and they will try to talk badly about anyone who thinks in a different way. I have had enough of one sided opinions and misinformed, delusional comments.

 

People can make up their own scenarios and believe them to be true. But when it comes to me, only I know the truth, and that gives me strength and the ability to ignore the ignorant. Yes, sometimes, God calms the storm, and sometimes, He lets the storm rage, and calms the child.

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