When I Was Young...
Posted: Monday, November 14, 2011
by Susan Thom
When I was young, I thought everything would work out as anticipated and expected, with good intent and hard work. It was hard for me to accept when they didn’t. I was a romantic, and needed all the pieces to fit. I didn’t know how to think or how to act when they came up short. When I felt hurt, I cried on my own, and carried my sadness deep within. So deep, it manifested into anger, and we all no anger is a much overrated emotion. The angry don’t usually realize the fierceness of their actions and reactions, many times it takes years to figure out how to curb a very damaging feeling and possible way of life.
I am a believer in Divine intervention, and I received such a wake up call. I took on the challenge of improving my life by letting some bad habits go, and learning how to communicate in a way other than through anger. When I was young, I had so many ideals and fantasies and dreams in my head, I found it hard to have room for anything else. I was naive to the real world, and I didn’t even know it. I thought my family and small group of friends and classmates and teachers, were my world. I had no idea what lie in store for my little brain!
I was in a cocoon of my own making, and I didn’t want to know that some people stole, and that I couldn’t leave my purse on the cafeteria table when I went to the restroom. I didn’t want to know people lied, and yet I heard many. My cocoon had been safer than reality. I didn’t know that girls got jealous of others, to the point of getting into physical fights after school. I had to look away if I was passing a couple of boys fighting, while others stood around and cheered. I found it barbaric then, and even more so now.
When I was young, I was so excited about the future, and all the things it would hold. I fantasized a magical place where people cared about one another, and helped each other out. No arguing or fighting, and plenty of happiness and love. When I was young, I simply didn’t know. Now that I am older, I try to do my small part of fulfilling those childhood fantasies. I have a family I love, a little maltipoo I love, and a home I feel safe and warm and cozy in. I write what I know, and hopefully, some will digest some of my words, and learn from them.
I have published a book of 23 of my articles, and it should be out this week through Inspiring Voices. I named it, "I am the Keeper of my Soul." I hope to help people through my words, that I believe, are God inspired. When I was young, I thought if you set your mind to it, and your heart was in the right place, and your soul knew you were humble, you could accomplish anything. Now that I am older, I still believe the same thing.
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Top-level comments on this article: (4 total)Susan, you have written a moving article, and I am so happy that your life has now become what you really wanted all along I think. And don't ever underrate the help the little Maltipoo has probably been for you. The unreserved love from a dog can make anyone, not only feel better, but actually be a better person. I hope God will continue to bless you.Please log in to respond to this comment.hi joel,
thank you for your lovely comment. i think i'm on the right track now.
i hope all is well with you and your family.
it was so nice to hear from you,
my best regards,
suePlease log in to respond to this comment.
Good article Susan, yes as we get older we look back at how life was and treated us as children.Please log in to respond to this comment.hi david,
thank you for reading and commenting.
life has been interesting, and at times, very difficult, but i am a survivor, and i hope to handle all that comes my way.
my best to you,
sue
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Hi Sue.
You've done a lot toward fulfilling your childhood fantasies! Great article, too!
Hugs,
DiannePlease log in to respond to this comment.hi di,
thanks for reading and leaving a comment.
i'm on a mission of making the best out of this life, come what may.
i plan to be successful :)
my best to you,
suePlease log in to respond to this comment.
You already are successful.Please log in to respond to this comment.hi elle,
thank you for reading and commenting.
i appreciate the kind words,
my best regards,
suePlease log in to respond to this comment.
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