Why Do I Write From The Heart
Posted: Wednesday, November 16, 2011
by Susan Thom
So often, I receive wonderful comments that say my articles come from the heart. So, what does that mean? It isn’t as if I know any other way to write, which has gotten me in trouble more than once. The truth may be the truth, but people can still make trouble for you if you decide to tell it. So, I shy away from speaking about others, and try to focus on myself, and my given role in any situation.
My emotions are very raw, something I try to work on to protect myself. I can describe them with ample adjectives for the reader to feel what I am writing about. I know what it’s like to feel pain and heartache, I’ve felt it. That is why I can write about it. I understand being controlled and over powered. I’ve been degraded and unfairly treated in my lifetime. I have had to work against the tide, knowing it was a losing battle, but my job to do nevertheless.
I have given birth three times and know the awesome feeling of seeing my children for the first time. Looking down at them, I knew there had to be a loving force who magically and spiritually produced such beauty. I have marveled often at their physical and emotional attributes and differences. I know those feelings well. I can explain them in a way others may truly understand. The truth is simple, and love is deep and forever.
To experience these things, and then share them in print, is something I am being guided to do, and I simply go along. I always wanted to help others, and do important things for them, and maybe by writing my brand of truth and emotions I may be able to help some. I know what it feels like to be alone and afraid and to experience that panic and aching in my life, the kind only talking to God could heal. I have had things happen that had no explanation other than divine intervention.
My helpless, hollow despair has been replaced by a positively focused mind. Answers come and I act on them. None have led me wrong yet. I know what it’s like to be outnumbered and to be made to feel less than. Frustration was with me twenty four hours a day, for many years. When one has a true belief system in the right things, and others try to break that belief system, or make fun of it at every turn, frustration ends in anger.
Anger can become the excuse for bad behavior, including drinking and drugs. Attending a twelve step program for four and a half years, was like going to the best University in the world. I quit drinking before I went. I never had the desire to go back to it. Nevertheless, I had a great need and desire to absorb the knowledge I learned from those hour long meetings. I was amazed at how enlightening and life changing the simplicity of life really can be.
I had accumulated so much drama in my life I was becoming ill. Once I began looking at things differently, and physically and emotionally made desperately needed changes, I started feeling better emotionally. I think the damage of stress and that damn frustration, has affected my body for the duration of my life. However, I never stop trying to learn new ways of making the best of my days on this Earth.
I know what it’s like to feel so alone that you wished even a mouse would come out of the woodwork to take your mind off of the pain. And I hate mice! I’ve cried so hard I didn’t think I could physically, or psychologically, stop. I’ve worked strenuous jobs, enough to think I couldn’t make it through, but I did. I’ve raised three beautiful children. I watched as my mom slipped away for three months in the hospital until I told my siblings we had to let her go.
We each took a turn and said whatever we could to free her of the worry of what was going to happen to us, so she could let go and rest in peace. She was fifty nine. Eight years ago, I had to do the same for my father. I have learned how to deal with many emotions and feelings. I’ve also tried to put the past in perspective, and leave it behind. So, yes, I write from my heart.
My words are descriptive because a higher power wants them to be. I am simply the instrument who has agreed to follow His lead.
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Top-level comments on this article: (1 total)Keep writing what you feel from within Susan. It's the only way to go.Please log in to respond to this comment.hi david,
thank you for the advice.
it's the only way i know...
thanks for reading and commenting,
my best,
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